#60

Tonight was very enjoyable. Work Holiday Party.

I made it a point to go home and get fancy before the event. Good choice.

I was complimented by being compared to Brad Pitt in terms of being handsome.

The magician (who was really good) referred to me a minimum of 10 times throughout his show.

I was of course unintentionally front row center stage due to where the podium was in reference to the table I sat at. Go me. Had no idea there was a magic show coming during the night.

Got to at least see my favorite coworker although the room was so busy we didn't get to chat...and that's ok.

It will be a good Friday despite my huge list of tickets, being on call tomorrow through next Friday morning, and a brand new headache to figure out (I've been given another client who needs someone to figure out a mystery).

Oh...and EHR maintenance tonight (Friday) which runs 8 hours lol

#59

3am. Been up for a little while. Some work yes, but more just thinking about recent occurrences. I could tell some of you I've slept but I know you won't believe me. That's ok.

Work can be tough sometimes. Even when you enjoy where you work and what you do. Last week I worked a lot. I took Sunday as a me day which I rarely do. I slept 14 hours to catch up on a week of basically no sleep. Monday we had a very drastic change at work. We all knew it was coming. Many we're not comfortable with the idea for different reasons depending on who you ask. Tuesday was crazy too. I spoke my mind a bit which I've been holding off about.

Today felt better. Some answers have come to light, and some more are supposed to be made known soon enough. I picked up some equipment for the new arrangements and I'm feeling more optimistic about it than I was initially.

Aside from me speaking my mind I have to give appreciation and gratitude to the person at work who has become my favorite. I'm sure at least some of you know someone like this. Someone who makes it worth coming into the office. Someone you can vent to and also get advice from without even having to ask. Someone who reads you better than others and actually cares about you aside from just being under the same roof. It's people like that who are very rare and bring sunshine into everything they do and everyone they interact with. I feel very lucky to know such a person.

Back to sleep...zzzzzzzzzz

#58

(Written 30 min later)

I lay here at 312am awakened by a nightmare - commonplace for me. That's another story. However, as I lay here no longer tired, I feel the fan on my skin, and the soft glow of my computer screen is just enough to keep me in a haze.

It makes me close my eyes and think. First about nothing. Then about a bunch of things. Just laying down and thinking isn't something I've done much of until the past year. I've tried in the past but for different reasons I hit a wall. When I say thinking, I'm not talking about problem solving or what I have to do this coming week. A better word would be contemplative. Deeper thought.

Recently it has been an area I have been able to enjoy more than before. Something I didn't expect but hoped for. I don't get to do it a lot, but it's very worth the wait when the next moment comes. I had felt before that it was something I may not get the chance to really enjoy in life, but life surprises you.

It makes me happy.

Goodnight everyone.